Guys my senior year starts in a little over a month. I have absolutely no clue what I want to do with the rest of my life. I love writing, but I tend to lose interest after too long and doubt the subject, so I stop. I love music, but I’m not talented. And I feel like I don’t have what it takes to work in the business area of the music industry. I love theater, but let’s face it. I’m not going anywhere with that. Whenever I talk to anyone about what I want to do, they try to brainwash me to do a certain job that they think would fit me (teacher, massage therapist, nurse, etc). I don’t want to sell out and be forced to do something that I hate for the rest of my life. I want to do something that I love more than anything. The thought of being tied down to an boring, every-day office job makes me sick to my stomach. I refuse to be one of those people who gave up what they really wanted for what everyone else said was best. I just want to find myself and find what fits me but I have the hardest time because everyone around me is so sensible and I just know that I will hate myself forever if I give up on the things that I love for some crummy job because it’s “safe”. In my mind, nothing is safe if it keeps me from moving forward or dreaming.

ugh someone tell me i’m dumb or they feel the same way or something because I’m a mess right now a;jgkfadlgjfse